Deepika Padukone Opens Up About Her History with Depression | Little Black Book | Harper’s BAZAAR


– Hi I’m Deepika Padukone, I’m an actor, producer and philanthropist. I’ll be opening up my little black book and bringing you into my world. (upbeat music) Subscribe to the Bazaar channel so you don’t miss an episode. (upbeat music) So first stop, we’re gonna
talk about mental health because that is a topic that’s
very, very close to my heart and something that I’ve been working on very, very actively in
that last couple of years. And that’s because I experienced anxiety and depression in 2014. So I’ve seen it up close and personal and I probably define it as the
worst experience of my life. I think a huge part of
my little black book is my mother, so we live
in different cities, so they visit me every now and then. And on one such visit,
I remember it was time for her to pack her bags and leave and she was, you know,
ready to go to the airport. And I was sitting in
her room watching her, just sort of, packing and
putting her things together when I suddenly broke down. And to her it seemed
strange because, you know, we sort of go through this
saying goodbye to each other every few months, pretty often. And of course she asked
me the routine questions about, you know, is
everything okay at work? Was it a relationship issue? I feel like as a mother she
needed to ask me those questions but I think somewhere
deep down inside she knew that it wasn’t the usual sort
of crying, it was different. Whenever I’ve not been
okay, I always feel like I want to keep that away from my parents because they live away from me
and I feel like they’d worry. So I hadn’t told them about
feeling this way for a while and then she caught this moment. But today when I look back,
I’m so grateful for that moment because she was the one who called it and she immediately realized that I needed professional help. And that’s when Anna Chandy and Dr. Shyam, the reason I am able to
run this foundation today is because of their passion and enthusiasm and both are a very
integral part of my life and my little black book. Yeah, I think waking up was tough because I didn’t want to face a day. When the doctor said that
this is clinical depression, I felt like I already
started feeling much better versus the times when I didn’t know what was happening to me. I remember those moments
being a struggle, not knowing. 2014, post the experience, and post coming out with my experience
with the depression, I also felt like I didn’t
want to stop there, I felt like I wanted to give back and I wanted to help people. And so, for me, coming out
and speaking out openly was to sort of help people understand what depression is because
you don’t really see very obvious physical signs or symptoms, unlike certain other illnesses. And I felt like by coming out and sharing my experience with the
world, if I could help even one life, I felt like
the purpose would be served. That’s when we set up the
Live, Love, Laugh foundation. It’s been more than three years since we set up the foundation. I feel every single day for everything that I have in my life,
if there’s one thing that feels the most
rewarding or the one thing that I’m most grateful for is the fact that I’ve been able to speak out. But through the foundation, also, be positively able to
impact peoples lives. (piano music) I’m not ashamed. I think if there’s one thing
that anxiety and depression has taught me is self awareness. And while I’d like to
believe that I’ve always been pretty aware of my feelings
and emotions, I feel like this experience sort of
just amplified that for me. I often feel like, and women especially, feel like when they
take care of themselves or take time out for themselves, it often comes with an element of guilt. And I feel like that’s the
one thing I stopped doing. I feel like if I want to
rest, if I want a massage, if I want to sleep, I’ve started enjoying those moments without the guilt. And I think self care is the
one thing that has really helped me on this journey,
you know, to recovery. You know, it works differently
for different people so I think it’s really
about listening to yourself and finding your own inner balance. (soft calming music)

88 thoughts on “Deepika Padukone Opens Up About Her History with Depression | Little Black Book | Harper’s BAZAAR

  1. The primary reason you are able to handle depression is that you have a very supportive and jovial life partner. If you had a wrong marriage and a kid and were stuck for life then things would have been different.

  2. It is so Gud to know that you are taking initiative,….. people please reach out… there is help you just need to take a step….. Depression can be so dangerous if you won't talk…..

  3. Love her so so much. So talented, poised and charming and I love that she used her voice for good!! 💖 you go Deepika! x

  4. Deepika is very strong minded woman and she is also a beauty with brain.🙂❤
    Bollywood is blessed with having Deepika, the queen 👸❤

  5. Such a beautiful sharing .. I went through the same experience with bouts of depression back in 2011- 2015 and I totally resonate what you went through. thanks so much for sharing 💕

  6. ♥️♥️♥️♥️❤️❤️❣️❣️❣️♥️♥️♥️❤️❤️❤️❤️❣️❣️❣️❣️

  7. HEY YOU

    Yeah you

    Have a blessed Tuesday 😘

    Trying to get 1000 subs by 2020. Would love any support! 😘❤️

  8. Her work in depression is exemplary….in India atleast now people come forward and discuss about it on social media

  9. Loved the way you carried yourself and your attitude from day one …
    Beautiful person u r..
    Beautiful personality..
    Down to earth..
    I'm totally speechless!!
    Keep up the good work of helping via your talks.. thank you .. much love from UK♥️

  10. Man this will sound strange but when I was undergoing depression, I watched one of her interviews where she talked about how she was feeling during those days. And I realised I’m exhibiting exactly the same symptoms. It made me research more and seek out help. For that, I can never thank her enough. Seeing an Indian person talk about it made me realise that this is not a “western phenomena” and come to terms mental illness is just like physical illness

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  12. The year 2014 is key, cuz it was her turning point, most successful year, giving 3 massive hits which were all highly acclaimed, winning ALL awards, starting to date her future husband….all EXTREME positives…but still she had anxiety, still she had regular days where she didn't want to get out of bed, didn't want to face the world despite the world actually being her very own oyster at the time…This is a disease, where sometimes surroundings can matter but more often than not, it's not about the surroundings…just like with diabetes, blood pressure etc

  13. DP😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘

  14. You area absolutely an inspiration for my generation and upcoming generations. Please keep doing good films and kudos to ur foundation for doing such good work associated with mental health ❤️❤️

  15. Love this woman so much. Not only is she a great role model and actress, but she's an inspiration in terms of how brave she is with trying to destigmatise mental illness. Go Deepika ❤️❤️

  16. Deepika padukone is best and she is inspiration for me because she is hardworking person, amazing person and I think she is best in all

  17. How can you call yourself a philanthropist? What have u done till now to be labelled as philanthropist, Mother Teresa was a philanthropist. Do your bit for a substantial period of time n then use such words to define who u are.

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